Whether it’s married or marry should not worry you, it isn’t important anyway. This question may sound weird to many of you, it also sounds so to me yet it’s one of the questions that tend to cross my mind almost every second of my life. I know am not the only one experiencing this, but just allow me not to speak on your behalf. This has everything to do with Princess, I rest my case. I know you are seated there wondering what is probably wrong me, surprisingly I can’t promise a worth answer, at least not now. I will just express my worry and thoughts over the same, and then together we will keep thinking of what could have pushed me to have that thought. Maybe to help you out a bit, there is no human figure behind this question, save yourself the energies of trying to figure out who the victim is, lest you start thinking it’s you. Okay, it’s weird to me that am thinking so loudly and so publicly of such an issue, more especially at this time of the hour, care not, may be that is why am doubting if I really should join up with someone. It’s then dawning on me that if I had already been married, you could not be reading this; I could be busy with him. Hehehehehehe. Just leave it at that.
All alone in this homely and relatively entertaining room (am saying this just to kill the boredom, it’s really boring), I can only talk to you, since am all alone; the more reason am affording such “wonderful” thoughts. And am trying to think I should have more of such times in my life, both of us know married women NEVER enjoy this. I am less of an introvert, but at least am sure I adore such times when I can do the things I love and keep my peace. Not to say that I lack peace in the company of my lovely roommate ( in fact am really missing her, I wish she was here) but at times it calls for one to have the heart at rest. Okay, if she was here, I could not be listening to “Jesus Friend of Sinners” at such a loud volume, maybe I could be struggling with earphones. Equally, I doubt if in the company of a husband any normal woman could be enjoying such benefits.
These are not the only instances when I ask myself this question, most are when I am out there with my friends having fun. Then I begin picturing myself with a bouncing baby boy. I know it could be more fun playing with him, but it could be a great sacrifice to give attention to two men in the house. Hehehehehehe; on a light note. Anyway, I was not headed there. What disturbs me with a married life experience is my lifestyle. I love staying late into the night, and most of the times am up to read blogs, write articles or even stare at the walls of this tiny room. It makes me happy, so happy. I have never spent a night staring at a human being; I wonder how it will be like.
I know people make sacrifices for the sake of the others, spare me the reminder. I know who I am, and I assure you this is something worth worrying about. But I tend to have a solution to this. I think I have all the energies to do this since I have less to worry about, I know marriage is not a bed of roses and there are a million and one things to think about. I will spend my nights worrying of what he will put on the next day to work (lest he shames me before the world), think of how to make his mother view me as a good daughter-in-law (stop that funny look, in-laws are the most delicate people one can ever come across) and maybe think of how to convince him to iron the clothes as I prepare breakfast (lest we go out hungry. Yeah….he is supposed to be my helper). Let me enjoy my music, lest I bore you the more. Until then, keep thinking with me.