I know you have waited long enough. Yes I know you have practiced your full patience. Through the storms you chose to be patient and wait for me. You believed in me that you could do nothing but wait. At times you were tempted to take another action but you still waited. At times you were persecuted beyond measure but you still decided you will wait. Yes, the vows we made on that night tied you in this waiting slavery. The consequences were so clear in you that you were compelled to wait. At times I was forced to perform the ritual more than necessary just to ensure you waited. I had to negotiate with the elders day and night so they could keep you waiting. I struggled through sacredness, I kept myself pure and sober to ensure you waited. I read the Torah gain and again just to ensure I missed not on one law. Of course at time I thought the laws were too harsh, but having your patience in my heart I had to follow them to the latter.
Here I am now, coming home with a full report. I did not tell them I was not here because I wanted to get their papers. Neither did I tell them of the so many offers I declined at home, leave alone the ones our brothers in Nigeria and South Africa offered. I never mentioned of my sacred and divine presence in their land, but my leg got into a hole. I broke one of my bones, that bone that their dogs feasted on as I cried and pained. They gave me nice offers to ensure my leg got healed, they had their own way of dealing with my pain, and they too were ready to give me goodies when they almost learnt who I really was. The wisdom of the Torah that compareth to no other saved me, the words it put in my mouth saved me. Our sacred ground was almost taken away, but I gave out just a portion of my blood to save it.
I promised to marry one of their sons. That was the only way I could survive in their midst. It never took me long to learn their selfish and selfless nature, but it has never occurred to me that they could show kindness, not to me not to them. As a dog I learnt new tricks. I acted naïve and stupid. I also didn’t let them know it had taken me four years to learn their language. They could always spit on me and see me smile in lack of understanding and knowledge. I laughed when they mocked me and you. I even supported them when they striped me. I wiped myself in their presence as we laughed along. But I still learnt their way of life that gives them the power over us.
Unlike us they will kill just to get to their targets. Unlike us they always speak in one voice even when their throats are tied. Unlike us they will greet the people they hate and pinch the ones they love. Unlike us they listen to wrong voices but still make them sound right and good in our eyes and ears. Unlike us they at times refuse to think and reason and resort to hearing and acting.
I have learnt so many of their tricks. But I hear they are planning to change me into one of their own. They have refused to kill me. They will send me into your midst to learn your tricks and get them such a report. At least before my head turns around I have managed to compile a full report. In a soon time you will receive it. Read it carefully and learn their tricks. Do not take too long to act lest the report the defiled me will compile for them will go into action and block the way. But am hoping to come home soon; to come back home with a full report.