Happiness!!! Happiness!!!! Happiness!!! is all I want. I wish not to speak for you my dear one, but I choose to acknowledge that you too are yearning for this. I have never known happiness, as I could say. I have known pain, I have known sorrow, I have been hurt and I have cried. If I could recall of an instance when I last had a genuine smile on my face, then I could go years back. The days I hadn’t known what life is all about, when the principle of ask and it shall be given worked pretty well for me. I never knew pain, I never knew struggle, I never knew sorrow. Sadly my happiness was based on an individual, I hadn’t known how well I could scatter my eggs, I lay them all in one basket, and the day they broke i lost all. I had never pictured such an occurrence one day, I lived in ignorance and naivety (as I could say), but still I can’t take the blame, it all goes back to my age. Am a strong believer of maturity beyond the age limit, but I equally admit I had no control over this. I fell in love, in pursuit of happiness, I lost friendships with unbelievable people, in pursuit of happiness. I knew of one person that could make me happy, I thought I could walk with my first love the rest of my life, he promised love which he did deliver, he promised life full of smiles and remained faithful to that, he never hurt me, never at any point, for the twelve years i walked with him, he remained faithful. But i sure did lose him, then my life became unbearable. I lost him to the monsters of this world, I count it a betrayal to me, that the circumstances under which i lost him still remain unclear to me. It was the people he trusted most, even with me that separated us, its the people i thought were positive with our relation that snatched him from me, yes i cried, not for a day but forever, i promised myself to never fall in love again, in pursuit of happiness, i settled into a lifetime mourning, if that could make him happy in his absence. I ran for happiness, I cried for happiness, my life was full of misery, I had to change my character, I lost my original self to another self, a self that i had to adopt in search for happiness, a self that I sure knew was not mine, but I had to stick to that, in pursuit of happiness. I say this with so much pain, I say this with so much sorrow, have run and sought for happiness, I know none can replace my love, I need not be made happy by others, I need not force anyone to make me happy, I need not cry for him since he is long gone but all this I do, IN PURSUIT OF HAPPINESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
for so long 2nd timothy 1:13-14 was just any other verse, it didn’t move me for the many times i read it, it didn’t make any difference, it just sounded like any other, okay, i may be speaking for what you even don;t know, so i decide am reciting it, hoping my voice will be heard by your ears, though its your eyes receiving the message. 2nd Timothy chapter 1 verse 13 to 14, it says: “What you heard from me, keep as the pattern of sound teaching, with faith and love in Christ Jesus. Guard the good deposit that was entrusted to you-guard it with the help of the Holy Spirit who lives in us.” i read this for a number of times and i begin seeing more than just a group of words consistently attached to make up a meaningful sentence. i look beyond the words and see – The sound doctrine Timothy had received and was supposed to transmit to others. For without a continual spiritual energy man can do nothing. I clearly see paul telling him to Keep the original plan, sketch and structure of the gospel, acceptable and pleasing to God.
But i was not happy with myself, i was doing all this because i was to do a theme exposition on the same, i thought of ministering to a people what am getting for the first time, but He speaks to me and says, my daughter, worry not for its evident you will not speak of what you know, bu that which I have laid in your heart.
As i constantly and constantly read through these verses as i ministered, i realized God was doing a new thing in my life and decided i will be loyal to the gospel, and that which He has entrusted to me i will pass on to faithful and reliable men, ready to be used of the Lord as noble vessels. catch up with me here all days so we can together learn how to be loyal to the gospel and hear what the spirit is saying.
Blessings Dear ones.
-Paul recognized that Timothy could be faced with challenges and many enemies could attack him hence a call to watch.
– He challenges him to let his love to God, to man and to one another be the motive of all his good conduct.